Dreaming

I had a weird dream, the kind you dont want to wake up from because it's just that good and you cant wait to see what happens next. And even after you figure out youre having a dream you keep trying to stay asleep just because it's just like the best movie you have ever seen. I'm in the process of writing a book and I've probably re-written the thing like 10 times. I have a picture in my head how I want it to go but I never actually get there. SO this dream might be a bit of an inspiration. It was about a girl who lived and worked by the beach doing hair right by the water, and she meets three guys and she wants one because he's so dangerous and intense but then wants the other because he's so sweet and fun and smart, and the other she keeps around cause he'll never go anywhere… Throughout the whole dream she kept rotating these guys hoping one wouldn't find the other.. it was the best and most fun and I loved watching what she was gunna do next… like I said it was just a weird dream but it was a lot of fun to have this dream kinda go on in my head.

Girl Can't Help It

How can anyone say no to this?

All I really want is to look healthy and feel confident. I don't want to be hard on myself but I'm not taking my diet and exercise serious enough. I need to stick to it and I need to start getting the results I want. I have no self control. NONE! If I could just have a body that was a little lighter and tighter I know I'd feel better about myself.

Food is my addiction and I must take control. I start again and see how long this will last…. GOOOOOOO Will POWER!!!! My goal is to stick to the diet for a month… no soda more fruits and veggies, and working out or doing something very physical every other day!!! My affirmation for tonight, start this week with a clean slate, no cheats, soda, fast food, or laziness. I will work out three times this week and I will not fall to temptation! And so it is

I was going to try to alter my state today at the dentist but I freaked out from the pain. I hated the dentist today as she poked and jerked my head around while working on me. What the FUCK was her deal? I have a funny feeling it had a lot to do with me rescheduling my appointment twice. Still where did this girl come from??? Walmart? Oh holy numb mouth

Ryan McGinley

I love Kate Moss and I really love Ryan McGinley's work. I hope that one day I can be able to produce work like this… speaking of which I need models!!! Any takers?

Bad Ass Bitch

I love M.I.A, if I ever find myself in need of letting out my bad side I'll def be pumping this jam out like no othaaa! SOOKISOOKI Did ya see her flip off America on the super bowl… hahah that was funny

Free People

Free people make clothes that inspire me and motivate me to keep on dreaming. I just love the California collection it is simply beautiful.

A Poem for HIM

Purple sheets hang on the line in our backyard. They flow and dance with the wind. Flowers in bloom have spread a sweet fragrance in the air and it's sweet and good. I dance to the rhythm of the broom as I sweep reminding me of my first dance with him. He'll comes home soon enough and I've baked him cookies that he absolutely loves. Some days the quiet in our home is lonely and cold but mostly it's comforting and I get to think even more. I've grown strong and I've been more independent. My strength comes from knowing I am loved. He is strong and calm and brings me happiness. I've never been so loved and I've never been so in love. We have the perfect bond, though we may not be perfect, though our house may not be perfect, we are still perfect for each other in the now. We travel together this earth and find things hidden for us. Magically we appear in situations where we find an adventure. We laugh and cry and hold each other in front of the beauty that we find. Mother nature created this beautiful planet and we enjoy it inch by inch. I glow when I talk about him. He has saved me. Long ago I was lost but climbing out of the darkest place I had fallen to. I was not able to talk freely or dream wildly. It wasn't easy but I made it out. Brendan had an energy that was light and pure and soft. I was totally falling for him from the moment we met. Eating in the dim light making conversation about fish. I was a challenge he learned quick. He came to know me first, but I came to love him first. It was a strong emotion I could not keep, it transferred to him and then back to me. From that first moment we kiss we knew it wouldn't be the last. We married two years later and that was that. We listen to music and make it too. I sit by the window and wish him home safe. Another day of firefighting another night of helping others feel safe. My hero, my man, my artist, and my best friend. I'm so in love and loved too… Brendan and Susie forever and ever blessed.

Sounds I love

cloud nothings-wasted days Great band with amazing sound! Gotta get this album soon and see them live...

Flaming Lips Freak Out