Ying Yang

Up, Down here, there in, out I feel a change coming... I don't know that I can be happy in the place I create anymore... it's something I've been thinking about...

Fall Hair

Inspire me!

blue hair

Figured it out

Today at the salon was kinda a sullen day. We all looked around wondering what the hell happened to our books. We fiddled around, looking through our books trying to figure out where all our clients had gone. Was it all a joke? Slow days at the salon are deadly. The mind begins to play tricks and nothing puts you at ease. Every and any Walk in is like bait in a shark tank... everyone thirsty for blood!!! I found myself trying not to lose hope or feel disappointed. After all I know that in the end things have a way of working out. I spoke to a very close friend who is much wiser beyond my years, I look to her like a guru, she pulls me up when I'm all down and in some weird way I fill her where she needs it most. I guess I'm lucky she called today because I was able to look at things with a positive eye. We believe in calling onto a higher power, to lift us up and keep us from going crazy. I called on it today. I needed to keep my chin up and keep truckin for I had to believe that things were gunna be okay. It's kinda been rough this month... but I keep going... at least I have love... I know it sounds lame but a long time ago not having someone to love or that loved me too was the worst pain i ever felt and I was so lonely and scared. At least now I have someone that keeps me from feeling so alone. He's so good to me that I just have to believe in that. Love keeps my world lit no matter what dark thing I get into... Brendan's love has always been my guide... it'll always be.

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I'm letting my negative thoughts eat me up. I hate this part, the part where I write this and it some how helps but also throws it out there. I've been kinda upset and things have been eating me up. As a result I think I've developed hives. I'm just really upset that certain energy still lingers from my past. That I'm not as busy as I wanted to be this week, and that Goldwell didn't work out like I wanted. I'm upset that I don't have the social life I once had... not even a little bit.... and that my friends have kinda just bailed on me... not all of them but most of them. So there... it's out there... Feelin a little better and reading a lot to kinda help get things more in sync in my own head...

Having an Argument with myself...

Oh jens I die for you

all most halloween

bummer its not summer

My husband went back to work... I'm alone at home again.... At least I have the interweb.... I keep finding new and inspiring things... thank god for that.... new obsession ROOKIE blog... find them and follow them

SK8BOARD BASICS from Rookie on Vimeo.

This video is so cute! I wish I was 17 again...